Happy New Year!
Time is getting closer, and I am trying not to stress about it. I never thought leaving here would be a scary thing. How will things have changed at home? With friends? With family? How will people feel about being around me? How will people feel and react to me when I go out. In discussing these concerns with some friends, one reminded me of the story found in John 8. It is about a woman who broke the law, she was caught in adultery. The sentence that was supposed to happen was for her to be stoned. Jesus was there and the people around decided to test him, stating that he preaches about kindness and love, but she broke the law. Jesus basically told them to do what they needed to do, but for the first person to throw a stone at her, to be someone without sin. In the end, everyone walked away, and the woman was spared. No one is without sin. How many people have drank just one too many, sure that they are good to drive home, but praying the whole way that they don’t get pulled over? Just because they did not get caught, did not mean they did not break the law. How many people have turned an old couch into Goodwill, received the receipt and listed its value at $800 instead of the $50 it was actually worth, just to take a bigger tax write off? Just because it was not caught, does not mean it was not tax fraud. How many people used, or even sold, drugs in the past (or present)? Just because they were not caught, does not mean they did not break the law? So the only thing I ask, before people bring down their judgment on me, for my wrongdoings, to think of their own. Just because they were not caught or not punished does not mean they were not wrong.
I heard a song this week, that has been stuck in my head. It really describes what I have been going through, trying to make the changes in my life, and trying to forgive myself for everything. It is called “Tell Your Heart To Beat Again” by Danny Gokie. If you listen to it, try to really listen to the words, it talks about leaving yesterday behind, you don’t live there anymore. So true!
My Bunkie leaves this week. I am so happy for her. She has made a major impression on my life over the last 27 weeks, and I will never forget her for it. She has taught me a lot and I will always be grateful for the time we have spent together. I really wish her the best of luck in the future.
With the new year here, I have wishes for my adult daughters and for my 3 year old son for 2017.
Wishes for my daughters:
* To learn to move past the thoughts of loneliness and be happy in solitude
* To realize that they do not need to be in a relationship to be happy and that no one is responsible for making them happy, they are their own best friends
* To remember if they spend too long holding on to the one that treats them like an OPTION, they will miss finding the one that treats them like a PRIORITY.
* To remember that NO ONE can make them feel inferior without their consent
* To work towards a closer spiritual relationship with God
* To continue their educational goals, and not let any obstacles stand in their way.
* To remember F-E-A-R has two meanings – Forget Everything and Run or Face Everything and Rise. The choice is theirs.
* To remember that no matter what, I love them more than they could ever imagine.
Wishes for my son:
* To know that his mommy is always here for him and loves him very much, even when we are apart. I am ready for separation issues when I get home, and will use patience and understanding as we work through them.
* To use every opportunity to learn something.
* To learn more and more about God and his forgiveness and love.
* To take advantage of being a kid and play!
Have a great week!
5 more chicken days!
2 more visit weekends!
2 more blanket exchanges!